Treatment #5

Treatment number 5 today.....Guest Blogger Jim writing. Moving Forward. So, so slowly....the past three weeks have been better for Misho physically.....she has has several shots of neupogen to increase her white blood cell count. She wants to do a lot of things, to be normal again, but fatigue gets the best of her most days. Each day is one more day closer to being done, but the time seems to go by so slowly. The energy required to mentally prepare for another day, another appointment, another treatment can be exhausting. We have a window seat again! I know that may sound silly but the sun is bright, the sky is so blue and somehow that makes us feel "ok" inside. The cancer center is slower today, that is comforting also. It is difficult to see all of the patients in every phase of treatment.... Some seem scared, some are very old and frail and most painful are the ones who are so young. I cannot begin to tell you how wonderful the entire staff is here. The level of care is at its highest level, especially the concern for us. I really don't know how they do this each day. They are truly special. I cannot begin to thank them enough. Our treatment today is starting later, we had to see the doctor. She was very nice, filling in in for our regular MD. Misho was quite restless for the first two hours, she has been asleep for almost An hour now. Seems like as the treatments advance she gets more tired. She was upset today, just tired of the whole thing, wishing it could be over, wishing to be normal again. It's been so long since the heavy, heavy feeling of her cancer has let us just breath... Hopefully time will not burden us with worry, but perhaps time will give us peace, peace to feel relaxed again, and maybe even time to feel normal again, even if for only a moment....... Jim