Four down, Two to Go......

Well, here we go again! Treatment number 4 is about to begin. It's 6 days behind due to Misho's bloodwork being low. (Guest Blogger Jim is posting today) Thankfully the 6 day wait, a shot of nupegen and lots of rest did the trick. Her blood work is better this morning than it was last time so I am hoping that her post treatment days will be better than last time. ......She has her pre-meds hanging now and she is driftng off to sleep as I type.... She woke up this morning and was upset, she did'nt sleep well and her mind was going places it should'nt. It does that sometimes, seems to creep up and come out of nowhere. We asked for a window seat today, it's away from the nurse's station and bathed in sunlight, there is a fountain outside and lots of blooming plants. The cancer center is slow today, I'm thankful for that. Misho went to support group last night. She came home looking so much better. I am so proud of her for going. She knows how important it is not to keep things inside, how free it feels to speak them and then let them go. I think it must be so hard to keep things bottled up, to not think of or share your cares and concerns with someone. 10:03 am, chemo starting, she is awake watching "Ellen"......soon asleep......very tired today. 11:20 am, asleep again. 12:00 pm, restess, walked around. lunch and some friends visiting from work. 12:30 pm, asleep again. 1:00 pm, first 500cc bag is done. 1:45 pm, second med done. 2:00 pm, on our way home. 66.66% of her Chemo treatments are behind us now! 2:45 pm, asleep on the couch.......peacefully. It feels good to "turn the corner" with the treatments. It also feels like it will never end. It gets "old" after awhile.....bloodwork,appointments,chemo......etc.... etc... each day brings us closer to the end and that does feel good.... I have to say sometimes I can't believe this is happening to us.. and to me. Having gone thru this before, makes my journey now harder and I feel very scared at times. Today I also felt strong for me and especially for Misho. I felt that we are slowly getting thru this. It is a very difficult place to be, but having each other is comforting. Jim Misho said some of you are having difficulty posting comments. I used "Internet Explorer" to find Mish's Blog and did not any problem commenting. We really like when you comment, it makes us feel more connected and understood. Thanks, Jim