Well the time has come. Yesterday was my first Chemo.
Wednesday was a little rough. We went to see Pastor Doug, just to get everything out and go into Chemo in the right frame of mind. It helped, but I was exhausted after. The entire night was so scary for me. I had been trying to look only one day at a time and now there was nothing else to look at, but this super scary thing. I was so tired and so much of everything, I didn't know which way to turn. I cried a lot.
I had to take steroids 12 hours and 6 hours before. That meant getting up at three in the morning and eating and taking pills, like I wasn't having enough trouble sleeping. The appointment was for 8:45. We got there on time. I went right back for them to access my port. That went well. It hurt, but not all that bad. I didn't have to wait long. Everyone I meet was very kind. They gave me a tour of the place and showed me my cubbie. They started with premeds which included more steroids. Then the Chemo started. I have to say it was not all that bad. I expected to feel worse during the whole thing. I did feel like my center of gravity was a little off. I was like a drunken sailor and I didn't feel like I could focus to read or anything. I didn't like that - they said that it was normal, but I still didn't like it. My peeps from work stopped by and chatted, that was nice. I did feel jittery from all the steroids. That was the worst part for the day. They gave me ativan for it and I felt better and slept some. I was done at 3:00. I was happy with that.
We came home and I was exhausted. All the meds and emotions - all I could do was sleep. I ate a little and then I went to bed and slept all night.
Today I feel better than expected. I am up and around and eating a little. I just feel like I don't have a lot of energy. I went for a little walk and that made me tired. I slept and rested most of the day. All in all, I think that I am doing OK. They said that tomorrow will be worse.
We will see what tomorrow brings.
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